Mood: <--- Scared


Reading: Septimus Heap & Alice 19th


Watching: Vampire knight,Daughter of 20 faces, Garo, Nodame Cantabile


Listening to: Hello by Evanescene



こんにちは！
おげんきですか？
げんきです






Meet My symtoms books, who I'm now naming Mr.Symtoms. This is a little notebook that is my second new best friend. I was asked to keep him everywhere I go and write in him. I guess you could say it sort of a diary, but it isn't private.See I was asked to write all the problems&pain&symtoms I feel every, each day. I guess the doctor will look at it. If you don't know what I'm talking about, "symtoms","Pain" and ect, then please read the previous entry to this one. Anyways, Mr.Symtoms is a nice little,small notebook that I bought at my local Wallmart. It says "Hot Chocolate" on the back. How nice!! Haha. Anyways,at least this is small and not big. I find bigger notebooks hard to carry around,especially everywhere.


Anyways it's been a hectic week. On Tuesday I was in the hospital for 4 and a haft hours. Waiting for a doctor to let me take a MRI. You see, my mom wants to take a MRI in Alberta but I think either it didn't work out or it doesn't take of your whole body, in which were looking for. Anways, I spent two hours in the waiting room and another two hours in a different room and finally the doctor visited us.Nice doctor. Anyways, she told me of my tests and told me It's a low chance of me having Arthrtis,which is awesome!!But still we need a MRI. Because their is something wrong with my Central nervous system,I think that right. And before anyone ask, I don't smoke or drink,so I didn't I guess you could say I didn't get this illness from that. Anyways that doctor gave us a referal to a doctor who would likely let me have a MRI. This doctor she refered us to is actually a doctor I had in sixth grade when I was in the hospital that time. Anyways mom said if we don't get a MRI from meeting this doctor, then we going to the USA, A.S.A.P to see my mom's uncle who's a type of doctor (forgett what type), who will be able to get me a MRI. Anyways, now here is the scary news, I guess for me and my mom mainly. I may not have Arthritis,but I might/maybe have MS (Multiple Sclerosis).


See the MS theory started,actually just recently. See my massage thearpist came over and was talking to me and asking me all my symtoms. See her mom has MS, so she has seen and knows the signs. And anyways, I told her and she told me I have many signs of Arthritis,but also of MS. See, I didn't know much of MS, I actually pretty clueless when it comes to diseases. I mean I know some,but not alot. But she said I had symtoms of MS, and I knew her mom had it, but I didn't know much of it. So after she left, I did lots of research. I found many good sights and most sights had the symtoms on it. Anyways I found two really good sigts, in my opinion, which told of some of the common symtoms. Anyways out of all the symtoms on the first sight, I had: 5/5 and on the second sight I had: 8/13. Now I don't think you need all the symtoms. But anyways, It's very uncommon for my age, and my mom told me don't self diagnose yourself (Meaning don't try to guess what you have).I'm not, but me and my mom both know that alot of those symtoms I have. The doctor told me it uncommon for my age, but it not impossible, and they really don't know totally without a MRI. My mom had also been thinking that I might have MS, because she told me she remember something. When I told her that it was hard to lift a cup, she said she was reminded of my thearpist mom. It's really scary.But hopefully this will all be figure out soon.Mom says this is a start of a long process. I also emailed little Makino on it.She hasn't replied. I'll see her tomorrow, I wonder what she's going to say.Anyways it's only a 'Might'. But it could be many other things.Anyways that all I want to write about today.

Mood: <--- Worried


Reading: Alice 19th & Septimus Heap


Watching: Vampire Knights & Garo & Nodame Cantabile & Absolute Boyfriend


Listening to: The Veronicas & Barrow Girls



こんにちは！
おげんきですか？
げんきです。





So May& June were busy with finals, and now school is finally over. My parents also are now seperated, but it wont become offical till October, this is because if my mother changes her mind. So the last month has been quite hard on me,and I dont just mean about my family ,but also about myself. I found out that I might have Arthrtis or Lupus. Everything is taking to slow to find out,so my mom has decided to take me to Alberta for a some sort of scan that I guess can figure out any problem.And it faster getting in then here, I guess.So we should be going real soon for that which will make me happy. Alot of things in my life have been changing, I sometimes can't walk or move my hands that well.All my joints, well i think all my joints but for sure my hands, are swollen. I find it hard to hold cups like coffee or hot chocolate.At times I have to use both hands. I'm also starting to realize to listen to small signs. My friend, Little Makino, doesn't believe in Little signs and says I should just listen in God. But isnt recieving signs or signals similar to listening to God.For all the people who believe in God.I really don't want to discuss faith, but everyone has their own oppinion and I know alot of people who are touchy on the subject. So anyway, what I mean by signal is small signs that lead to something. Like my doctor told me to start eating/drinking ginger. It can be found in stir fry, or green tea.Anyway, my horscope this,well next month, for my birthday said: I should shop for ginger. It can be found in stir fry, candies, or green tea. Now I dont usually believe in horoscopes because usually their the same things. Their always talking about 'love' and so on.What was funny was out of all the horoscople mine was the only one that didn't sound, I guess, cheesy. It made sense,so when I saw what to shop for and what my doctor directly told me to do,I thought, ok maybe I should listen to my horoscope for this month.Which told me to gather up alot of friends, because I'll be recieving hard news at the end of the month. So yah. I mean alot of people would say, that's just concidence, but for me my gut tells me to listen to it. I've had these gut feelings before and they ended up me choosing what highschool I wanted to go to and I'm loving it,I mean highschool. It's scary, but I'm just happy knowing that one of the days I will find out what I have. I've come to terms that this is life, and I just got to keep living and forgett my troubles because I have so much and worrying about stuff will just make me waste my time.


So on other news, I've finally translated 60 pages of Alice Nineteenth or
ありす１９ＴＨ。 I'm so proud of myself. I've been enjoying Yuu Watase story and it's fun to spent hours translating a different language.It also helps me pick it up faster :). I didn;t tell anyone I was translating japanese books to english in my blog. I'm pretty sure. But yah, that's what I've been doing. I'm translating currently Alice 19th. But afterwards I have Alice 19th volume 2, Marmalade boy volume 1, Lala magazine, and 1 litre tears. 1 litre tears is a novel,not a manga. I probably won't be able to translate, but I'll be able to read parts. See 1 litre tears is a diary of a girl (this is a true story) who had a incurable disease and she wrote in a diary. It's very touching and I want to read it. But you see,I'm not that good at Kanji yet in japanese, even tho I've tooken my full attention to it now for the summer, and this is a diary so when theirs kanji their isn't a little spelling in the hirgana/katakana alphabet on the side of the kanji of what the symbol means, so it very hard to translate. And in japanese manga/magazines and most things they have this on the side so it make it easier to translate, but since this is a diary and she knew what she was writting, their was really no need for that. So as I get older and learn more japanese I'll be able to read it on my own,but for now I will just translate what I know and enjoy it. OOOOOOOOH, thats right I'm studying more of japanese, like kanji,review of this year morning&afternoon classes, and everything. I want to learn more, and become good.Especially since next year is the Yokohama trip.My morning class ended on June 14th, I passeed the first year of japanese school and have a certificate to proove it. Next week Japanese afternoon class comes to a end for the summer. I've learn so much.I'll be going onto my second year of Japanese starting in september. In September I'll be offically taking three classes of Japanese. A morning and afternoon classes on Saturdays. And culture/language class on another day for Yokohama,Japan. Next year when I start grade 10, I want to get all 90's or high 80's in my classes. I want to work hard so I can achieve my dreams of studying in a Japanese university. I'm thinking of jobs in the art area, but also teaching english in Japan. I think I would enjoy that.


So Yokohama,Japan exchange is next year. I can't wait! I've already raised 1,300. I need three thousand,so I'm at a good start. Also I made my own Vampire Knight Blog skin. This is the first blogskin I've made and I'm sooo happy. It took me three days to make the layout and code it. Thanks Saruna.net and
at0mica.net for the blog background and brushes on my layout. I have given you full credit on the credits part. Sadly since I'm so new at this layout making on blogger, I can only make my blog look beautiful on IE and not on Firefox, sorry all firefox users. But anyways the anime of Vampire knights is freakin awesome, and I'm so in love with the manga,I'm reading it in shojobeat and in the LaLa issue I have, has a chapter of it, so yah. Anyways the main reason i made a Vampire knight Layout is because at the anime con I'm going to in July, I will be going as Yuki Cross for cosplay. I'm having my costume handmade and yah,yippeee, I'll definatly take pictures and put them up. And little Makino is coming,and all my japanese classmates are going to be going. It will be in a different province of course,but still,fun. I'm also going to Hawii for a wedding and have to come up with a Japanese toast because I was ask to.Um,yah,so this July will be awesome. Have a good summer everyone.I'll keep update :)