Yesterday I sent the first forms to AFS,they should arrive by Wednesday or Thursday. I felt really happy when I did that, I'm sort of happy for the next step which is a bigger application form. It feels nice to know that you want to do something so bad but to do it it involves hard work which works out to be rewarding. That what I feel, with hard work, lots of support, I know it can come with a good result. I'm not totally sure I'll get it but I'll be positive and be myself. Mom was kind of sad when we sent the letter in, I think she realizes that I'll be leaving her for a year. It not me who will have a hard time with this but also my mom who has a hard time living without me, I think. I reassured her that it would be alright and that if I go she can contact me any time, and after a while my mom calmed down and return to normal. Now she is just making sure with tons of questions that I'll be safe in Japan. I understand her feelings. Also today my friends are realizing that if I go I won't be with them for graduation so they're starting to do plans. They're making lots of plans with me so they will have enough to be with me. This made me happy inside and sad, but mainly happy because it showed how good of friends they're. I also think it good for me to hang out with them every weekend or every other weekend because it will give me a chance to bond with them and just be buddies. I enjoy hanging out with them and if i go I will truly miss them, especially since now they're trying to figure out a time when we can all talk on msn together while I'm over there.
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